The Holidays
Nov. 27th, 2020 03:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dynok9kWell, it's the day after thanksgiving and I feel so-so about the Christmas season. Christmas music playing anytime before the week of Christmas has annoyed me for the past few years, but this year I don't care, it is just background noise to me, I'll take that as an improvement in my mood.
As for everything else relating to the holiday, I am going to keep things real simple this year.
I am only going to watch A Christmas Carol, It's A Wonderful Life, and maybe Christmas Vacation and A Christmas Story this year. And, for animated specials Charlie Brown will be about it.
For the dinner, I will be keeping that simple as well. I'll probably get something from Dairy Queen that we don't usually get, just to make the meal a little bit special. I am also going to try and get some donuts from Krispy Kreme in a couple of weeks, that way I can make my favorite donuts again, I really missed them last year.
Presents are going to be simplified as well, mostly a few clothes for me, and whatever my father wants I'll get him. I just don't really don't see anything exciting that I want this year.
I may try and watch church services on Christmas Eve. Not sure about that one yet, it will depend on my mood at the time.
Thinking about it, I think my dislike of Christmas time started in 2010, that was my first Christmas without my mother, it really hurt then and it still does today. I used to love the Christmas season and I really want to again, it was my favorite time of the year until then. I know I need to move forward with my life, but it isn't easy, time is healing that wound way too slowly. Sometimes, I look around and wonder when my, Clarence/Angel is going to appear and show me what kind of "good life" I've had, I could really use it right now.
As for everything else relating to the holiday, I am going to keep things real simple this year.
I am only going to watch A Christmas Carol, It's A Wonderful Life, and maybe Christmas Vacation and A Christmas Story this year. And, for animated specials Charlie Brown will be about it.
For the dinner, I will be keeping that simple as well. I'll probably get something from Dairy Queen that we don't usually get, just to make the meal a little bit special. I am also going to try and get some donuts from Krispy Kreme in a couple of weeks, that way I can make my favorite donuts again, I really missed them last year.
Presents are going to be simplified as well, mostly a few clothes for me, and whatever my father wants I'll get him. I just don't really don't see anything exciting that I want this year.
I may try and watch church services on Christmas Eve. Not sure about that one yet, it will depend on my mood at the time.
Thinking about it, I think my dislike of Christmas time started in 2010, that was my first Christmas without my mother, it really hurt then and it still does today. I used to love the Christmas season and I really want to again, it was my favorite time of the year until then. I know I need to move forward with my life, but it isn't easy, time is healing that wound way too slowly. Sometimes, I look around and wonder when my, Clarence/Angel is going to appear and show me what kind of "good life" I've had, I could really use it right now.
