December: End Of Year Update

Well, here it is almost the end of the year and I am ready for it to end. This year has been both expensive, rough, and sad for me. There were a few bright spots, but for the most part this year has sucked, especially the past 6 months. This has really caused me to reflect on my life as a whole, about where I've been, where I am right now, and where I might be going in life.

Last week, we took some gifts to a dear friend we haven't seen in a long time, she was happy to see us and we were happy to see her. After a few minutes of visiting, we said our goodbyes and went home. She is into chickens now and her story about her rooster acting like a dog was too funny, it made my day.

Christmas was quiet for the most part, we had chicken and potato salad for the dinner, my father doesn't like anything different, so I kept it simple for him. But, I on the other hand would love something better, I love cornbread dressing, but haven't had any for years, as most store bought stuff doesn't measure up, and being unable to trust my oven, it is older than I am, I can't make any from scratch, or even a good mix since they stopped making the Ballard mix years ago. Oh well, I'm still searching and maybe I'll get lucky and find some decent dressing for next year. At the moment though, I would love some pizza from either Fleur De lis or the Past Time Lounge, that would taste so good right now.

I now have another cat in my house. A couple of weeks ago, one of the younger cats that had been getting close to me, but would not let me pet it, started rubbing on me and wanting petting, as well as insisting on going in the house, it would not take no for an answer. Me being the softy that I am let her in. The other cats aren't happy about it, but they haven't really attacked her either, so that is a good thing, they'll get used to her eventually. Since she is inside now she has a name, my father named her, Joanna. I really didn't need another inside cat, but what could I do, she worked really hard to get in.

I found out the other day that one of my favorite people,that I've come to know and consider as a friend, is going to be leaving his job in a couple of months, that made me kind of sad, I understand why he is leaving, but still, I get used to seeing certain people over the years and when they are gone I really do miss them terribly.

A couple of my other,much older friends are not doing very well right now. I know they don't have much longer and it hurts knowing that. They have been so good to me and I can't imagine life without them in it anymore, just seeing them going down has been hard, they were always so happy and active, even going to movie is a chore for them now, and they used to love that.

My health is holding steady at the moment. I am rather exhausted from not getting a break from my daily routines though, and I don't know how much longer I will be able to hold out without taking a real vacation, and if I don't get one soon, I think I am going to crash hard in some way or another, and it won't be good if that happens.

As for life in general, I have been trying to keep things simple and enjoying what few moments of happiness and quiet that I can. It's not always easy to find those moments of peace around my place, but they are there if I slow down enough and look for them.

I know it is just a concept, but I am hoping the new year will be better, at least a little bit anyway.